So, last year was TOUGH.  It was one of THE most painful time in my life; no exaggeration.   I have never felt my heart experience such extreme wrenching, I am amazed that I managed to be formed into a new shape by the refiners fire instead of dripping away as dross.  But, it was necessary, and I am so grateful that I had (and still do) the gospel to carry me through.  Even though I struggled, I hope that I also gained new insight, a truer heart and a deeper commitment to my devotion to Heavenly Father.  The fire not only shined me up a little, it also nourished me.  I am emerging with more personal strength than maybe I have had before.  At least, I hope so.  I desperately want to retain what I have learned.

I do know that I missed me...if that makes any sense.  I find myself laughing again, and 'cracking myself up' again.  I am rediscovering that life does exist outside of my world, and that it is in constant "busy-ness".   I am eager to join life's' activity and add my song of laughter.  I am optimistic that I will be blessed to find a good job.  I am optimistic that I will be blessed to reach some personal goals.   I am even optimistic that maybe, just maybe, my personal relationships with the male species will improve!  (I am sure I will have more commentary on this down the road).  I don't think I was emotionally capable of achieving anything last year, other than to just survive.  This year will be different!

So everyone, keep me in your prayers.  Continue to remind me that you love me...I need to hear that now and then.  And I thank you for already doing so.  You truly are my friends, and I am so blessed to have you in my life.